05/31/2026
Maybe my involvement in the destruction of lives is the reason for my “bad karma” lately? If that truly is the case, I accept it. I studied this s**t for years and still decided to be apart of it. If I don’t get to live an easy life walking amongst the flowers when others didn’t get the choice, then so be it. I’ve read and have always admired the story of Sisyphus. I’ll pay the toll for as long as I’ve got to if it means I’m doing something right for once. As long as my kids and others don’t have to go through the same bulls**t we put each other through too.