27/03/2017
How many late evenings and endless working weekends is it reasonable to give up for what you believe in, and in trying to do something new?
I haven't posted much recently about my private landscaping work because too much of my focus and energies have been ploughed into our yourspace.sutton community project and so we haven't taken on quite as much work as we once used to.
Luckily I don't miss the buzz I get from landscaping private gardens too much as I still get it a plenty from landscaping the grounds of the community project, but at the end of the day, like everyone else, I need the income and work too!
It has been a big sacrifice and one that just seems set to continue through all of this year, trying to make more of a living from my social enterprise and not rely so much on the physical toil and demands that landscaping takes on the body, but in actual fact the demands of the community project take just as much from my soul, though I don't post about that part of it on its own page.
My work partner and colleague of 13 years is about to start a sabbatical that may lead him into permanent retirement and it represents a massive change and challenge to what I manage to do and the weekly workload that goes mostly unpaid.
Up until now, the efforts have always seemed to be about building the kind of social gardening business that would allow us to practice our career skills in a way that would be less harsh on the body, and to that extent we have managed to take on a derelict nursery in the middle of nowhere and make it a place that people volunteer at. We have managed to secure teaching business from partnering colleges, we have managed to secure special needs school weekly workshops, and we have managed to create an alternative provision for school refuses and pupils with challenging behaviours.
Social services and charitable organisations such as Mencap call me asking if I can support someone frequently, in a working capacity and up until now I have always struggled to say no, because after all I am trying to establish a different kind of business, and in truth what I have created is kind of unique, just that there isn't anyone else who it seems is able to help me, because most of all that I do has been free, and you can't find people committed to creating something that takes a long term vision if they have to constantly repeatedly give their time up free!
I am forever having to reinvent the landscape of what I am trying to do, and it always demands more and more effort.
I don't want to be landscaping and maintaining people's gardens alone until I am old and my body can take it no more, and so I put everything into creating this new working environment with social elements, but it is based in the back of a park that people use mostly at weekends, and so I now am faced at opening Saturdays and Sundays as well as all that I do, and escaping from the physical demands on the body is replaced with enduring every challenge that's incoming and new!
I don't know how I am going to do it if I am really honest, but I am committed to it in a way that no one knows or understands, and that is what comes of working alone.
Now the landscape is once again changing and I am about to start plans for running a garden cafe and start work on creating a series of covered indoor garden spaces to act as tea gardens to the social enterprise and community gardens I run, but I still very much need to keep up the private gardening work to pay for all I am trying to do, and all I am trying to do, is cope with all I find myself having to do, to keep up with the demands of always wanting to landscape the ideas that keep coming to the mind, before it takes its toil on the soul and the body.
I thought private gardening was hard, but believe me, community gardening is just as draining and it goes on longer each day than there are sun hours in the sky!