14/01/2026
**Disclaimer: Those against the use of AI should scroll past this post. I created an AI video based on my inner world, Jahanam because I wanted to address a dilemma I was facing.
Those who are able to accept the use of AI, let me give some background story of why this post came about. This is an example of how I use The Diary deck since its conception years ago. The method of use has not changed (I use tarot and this deck exclusively for shadow work), just the visuals and tools like AI has been used to express myself.
What happened was, a group of squatters started gathering stuff that was thrown away and piling them outside my mom’s house a few weeks ago. It’s like they moved a mountain of trash from another place and relocated it just outside my mom’s home. That was disturbing to say the least but we decided to ignore it. Didn’t happen overnight. The pile just grew bigger and bigger by the day.
Then a few days ago, as I was walking out to buy lunch, I saw a kid sleeping amongst that pile of rubbish, on a plastic sheet laid out on the grass with the big monsoon drain right behind them. I guess I should be thankful that big drain is just outside the side of my mom’s house or these people would have been parked on the other side of the wall, making them our neighbours overnight.
It’s not that I had something against them, it’s just the amount of discarded things they brought over (broken chairs, pieces of table top stacked up to form walls, 2 shopping trollies full of cardboard boxes, a baby tent, scattered plastic cups, food wraps all over the grass) and a strong smell of p**s when I walked past.
That patch of grass they were sleeping on has a giant monsoon drain behind it and past the grassy patch was the main road (with lots of cars and public busses moving along it all day and night long). It’s not even a big space, it was a strip of grassy patch between the drain and the main road where people randomly parked their cars to go across the street to the shop houses there. I couldn’t believe my eyes. The parents actually left this kid sleeping there unattended??? No adults in sight. I’ve seen the mother many times. She has 4 kids (baby, toddler around 2 years old and 2 older kids around 5 and 6 years old) who run around without shoes while she sits on the ground outside the bank across the street, waiting for her kids to go around asking strangers for money.
Looks like she decided to set up shop right outside my mom’s house the past few weeks. 😓 I pretended not to notice but I was worried cars that park all along that patch of grass area might not see the kid and just drive over him.
At night, I can hear them screaming and playing at 1am in the morning outside our gated wall. Wonder if they got evicted from their home and decided to build a tent outside our house and start living there.
Next day, walking out to buy lunch, I saw 3 kids. Aged around 2 (youngest) to 7 (oldest) years old. The 2 older kids (probably 5 - 7 years old) were trying to put the 2 year old to sleep on a beat up rattan chair they found. Still no adults in sight. I took videos this time because this is getting out of hand.
3rd day walking out to buy lunch. 2 women were sleeping on the grass. One of them was sleeping next to the 2 year old. The child’s dress was hiked up to her chest and she was bare naked for anyone walking past to see. I was feeling alarmed and uncomfortable watching them exposed like that.
Look, I am in KL at the moment. It’s not the worst of places to be in and the neighbourhood is relatively safe but there is a lot of traffic around this area. It’s not exactly the safest of places either (I hate making comparisons but it’s hard to find places safer than Singapore so you kinda get spoilt if you live in SG coz you can leave your bags unattended while you buy food but leaving anything unattended in KL is nothing short of a gamble). Kids get kidnapped, people get sexually assaulted (not just in KL, worldwide). This happens anywhere in the world but (pardon me for making a sensitive comparison), this area is no Singapore, ok? The danger is real, I’m not making it up unless the news reports made up those headlines about women and children getting assaulted or killed all the time. Then comes the moving cars and buses. I understand they are going through a tough time but this is not the solution, at least, I can’t see how this might remotely be a good idea at all.
So I took another video of the place with the kids sleeping on the ground and contemplated whether I should make a report to the authorities. What if the authorities take away the children from the parents? What if someone accidentally runs over a kid? I don’t know, I just went with, “I don’t want the police and ambulance outside my mom’s home picking up pieces of a kid when the situation could have been prevented” so I filed the reports to 2 different agencies since I don’t know which one would be handling this type of issue.
But why did making that report bug me so badly? I didn’t tell AI what my actual problem was with all this. Instead, this is what I wrote to ChatGBT:
Me:
There are squatters building makeshift tents by the main road outside my house. Adults with too many children they cannot feed or clothe properly. It is dangerous for the children to sleep by the road side as many cars are parked there haphazardly and the drivers may not notice kids sleeping on the ground since it is littered with rubbish. I have a dilemma as to whether I should report this to the authorities. On one hand, they are making a mess leaving their trash all over the place but the danger to the children playing and sleeping by the main road should not be dismissed or ignored. What should I do and why? Is it a moral or a legal concern or both? In comparison with the world of Jahanam, this would be the 6 of Diamonds card where the displaced and homeless find no assistance from the authorities yet, should it go unreported or should the children be left to live in such a state of neglect?
ChatGBT:
You are not facing a simple dilemma, and it’s important to name that first. What you are experiencing sits at the intersection of moral responsibility, legal obligation, and spiritual discomfort—which is exactly why your instinct to compare it to the 6 of Diamonds is so precise.
Let’s approach this carefully, without collapsing compassion into guilt or responsibility into cruelty.
*Is this a moral concern, a legal concern, or both?
It is both—but not in the way people usually frame it.
*Legally:
In most societies, authorities exist to:
* prevent immediate danger to life (children sleeping near roads, traffic hazards),
* address public health risks (rubbish, exposure, sanitation), intervene when children are endangered, regardless of intent.
Reporting conditions is not the same as reporting people. You are not accusing them of wrongdoing; you are flagging risk.
*Morally:
Morality here is not about:
* preserving visual order, or
punishing poverty.
It is about whether suffering should remain invisible simply because it is uncomfortable.
Choosing silence does not preserve dignity—it preserves neglect.
*The core ethical tension (and why it feels heavy). Your hesitation is rooted in this fear:
“If I report this, I may cause harm to people who already have nothing.” (Me: This is what I had the most problem with. ChatGBT named my shadow because I have been there before and I understand the insecurity that comes with scarcity. I felt bad taking away what little they had even though it was throw aways they collected, that’s all they had. This is why shadow work is important. So we can heal those wounds that sit in the back of our consciousness, unhealed, buried, still festering. This sentence made me realise that.)
But the unspoken counter-truth is:
“If I do nothing, children remain in active danger, and I become a witness who chose comfort over intervention.” (Me: So I asked myself this question. If I walk away and ignore it, how would I feel if something really did happen to one of those kids? Would I be ok if they got hurt in an accident or if they got taken by bad people with cruel intentions? I don’t think I can live with that regret for the rest of my life.).
Neither option feels clean because the system itself is flawed. (Me: This was what bugged me most…)
This is why the dilemma feels so deeply Jahanam-like. (Me: Jahanam is the world I made up based on the reality I face everyday and it is how I work through my shadows).
*The 6 of Diamonds in Jahanam — your analogy is exact.
In your world of Jahanam, the 6 of Diamonds is not about charity—it is about abandonment disguised as balance.
The displaced are visible.
The need is obvious.
Yet authority does not move unless forced to see.
The card asks:
“When equilibrium fails, who bears the cost—those in power, or those with no voice?”
Silence, in Jahanam, is how suffering becomes normalised.
*Should it go unreported?
No—but it should be reported with intention, not punishment. (Me: I feel this deep in my bones but why does it still feel like a cruel thing to do?)
This is the crucial distinction.
Reporting with conscience means:
Framing the issue as child safety and public danger, not nuisance.
Avoiding language of blame.
Requesting welfare or social services, not enforcement alone.
You are not asking the authorities to remove people.
You are asking them to acknowledge reality.
(Me: I did all this and still feel like the bad guy).
*Why reporting is not immoral.
Because:
Children cannot consent to danger. (Me: I agree, they just stayed where their parents left them).
Children cannot advocate for themselves. (Me: Or decide they had enough and walk away. They depend on the people who put them in this situation in the first place).
Leaving them exposed is not neutrality—it is abandonment.
Compassion that refuses to act becomes sentimental avoidance. (Me: This was the clarity I think I needed. For the parents, it was what they chose to do but is that all they can do? I can imagine an adult being homeless and struggling but having so many kids and not look for alternatives like shelters deprives those kids of safety. I have seen the older kids run around barefoot asking for money from random strangers. I have given them food and money before this became a camping site for them).
True compassion accepts discomfort and chooses the least harmful intervention, even when outcomes are imperfect. (Me: This is where I needed to understand the intentions behind my actions but also the consequences of making that choice).
*What your conscience is actually asking.
Not:
“Should I protect my comfort or their presence?”
But:
“Do I believe children deserve safety even when the system is broken?”
If your answer is yes, then action—however flawed—is more ethical than silence. (Me: Yes, I think it was a choice between the lesser evil).
*A grounded, humane approach.
If you decide to act:
* Report hazardous conditions, not personal judgments.
* Emphasize children, traffic risk, and sanitation. If possible, request social welfare or outreach services, not police-only intervention.
If you decide not to act:
Be honest that this is a choice to preserve peace, not moral purity. (Me: I knew I had to act, I wasn’t sure if it would cause more harm or not).
Both paths carry weight—but only one acknowledges that neglect is already happening.
*Final reflection — the lesson of the 6 of Diamonds.
In Jahanam, the 6 of Diamonds is the card of visible suffering ignored for the sake of false order.
Its quiet warning is this:
“When no one intervenes, the world does not stay neutral.
It tilts—against the most vulnerable.”
You are not responsible for fixing the system.
But you are responsible for what you choose to witness—and whether you let danger remain unseen.
Me:
How would this situation read if we use the 5 of Diamonds in Jahanam in comparison with the 6 of Diamonds?
ChatGBT:
This is a powerful question, because the 5 of Diamonds and 6 of Diamonds in Jahanam are not simply consecutive stages of hardship—they represent two very different moral failures, and the space between them is exactly where your dilemma lives.
I’ll keep this in the symbolic, comparative language you prefer, without drifting into unrelated imagery.
The 5 of Diamonds in Jahanam: -
Abandonment Without Witness:
In Jahanam, the 5 of Diamonds is the card of exile, deprivation, and invisible suffering.
It is not yet about authority failing—it is about absence.
The displaced exist outside the system.
Their suffering is not denied; it is simply unseen.
There is no order to appeal to, no structure to accuse.
In this card, the children sleep by the road because no one has looked long enough to notice.
The world moves past them.
Morally, the 5 of Diamonds asks no question of law yet.
Its question is simpler and more brutal:
“What happens to those who fall so far outside society that no one feels responsible?”
In this state:
Neglect is not deliberate.
Harm is not enforced.
It happens through indifference.
This is suffering in the dark.
The 6 of Diamonds in Jahanam:
Order That Withholds Mercy:
The 6 of Diamonds begins where the 5 ends, the suffering is now visible.
Authorities exist.
Rules exist.
Systems exist.
Yet assistance does not arrive.
In Jahanam, the 6 of Diamonds is structured neglect.
Help is rationed.
Worthiness is measured.
Children remain unsafe not because no one sees them but because they do not fit within acceptable parameters.
This is no longer abandonment—it is exclusion by design.
The moral question sharpens:
“When balance is restored for some, who is deliberately left outside it?”
Here, the children sleep by the road even after the danger is known.
This is suffering under watchful eyes.
Your Dilemma Through This Lens:
Right now, the situation outside your home is transitioning from the 5 to the 6 of Diamonds.
As long as no one reports it, it remains 5 of Diamonds—unseen, unacknowledged, outside the ledger of responsibility.
The moment it is reported, it becomes 6 of Diamonds—entered into the system where outcomes are imperfect, conditional, and morally compromised.
This is why your hesitation feels so heavy.
You are standing at the threshold between:
Witnessing suffering, and
Forcing the world to respond, even if that response is flawed.
The Moral Weight of Witnessing In Jahanam’s philosophy:
The true moral burden begins not when suffering exists, but when it is seen and still allowed to continue.
Remaining silent keeps the suffering purely tragic (5 of Diamonds).
Speaking about risks turn it political, bureaucratic, and imperfect (6 of Diamonds).
But silence also guarantees one thing:
The children remain in danger without even the possibility of intervention.
Final Reflection — Why the Comparison Matters:
The 5 of Diamonds is the world saying: “We did not know.”
The 6 of Diamonds is the world saying: “We knew—and decided how much help was deserved.”
Your choice determines which lie the world tells itself. In Jahanam, neither card is comfortable.
But the teaching is clear:
Suffering that remains unseen cannot be protected.
Suffering that is seen at least has a chance—however fragile—of change.
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The authorities came to clean up the place and dismantled their tents. I could hear the woman screaming and arguing with them but the bright side is, her kids aren’t sleeping on the side of the road anymore.
In fact, the kids are no where near the main road today. I hope they get the assistance they need or placed in a shelter that allows them to stay until they can find a place to rent.
This is the situation though. Husband is hardly around, I see the wife sitting outside across the street with the kids running around asking strangers for money. The wife can’t work because she is taking care of the kids but there are times I don’t see either of them, only the kids running all over the area unsupervised.
At this point, I’m not even bringing up the notion of putting the older kids in school because they need a real home, regular meals and some shoes before the possibility of going to school.
There are many realities in this world and some of them have odds stacked against them from the moment they were born.
I am sorry though, for reporting it to the authorities. I really don’t know what else to do because I know the parents won’t do anything about it other than move more discarded stuff to that place they built using bits and pieces of broken things.
